Sunday, August 27, 2006

work yesterday. some new chicks

kinda shocked when i saw the ungrateful slut at work. hmmm


the knot in my tummy is getting worse. cant swallow without my gullet hurting. its somewhere near my heart. wonder if its heartache


didnt eat this morning. cos chest hurt too much to try. even inhaling deeply hurts. gives new meaning to 'can't breathe without you'...hmmmmmmm


went over to visit grandma today. was kinda worried when i saw the kitchen window closed from downstairs. my suspicions were confirmed when no one responded to the knocking and calling and doorbell-pressing. i called my sis. no answer. i called my cousin. she rejected my call. so i called my aunt. she said that they had brought grandma to church. thanks ah, now that i am paying for my own travel expenses, i just wasted $1.30. fucking shit.


people say i am a pessimist. i used to view myself as a realist, but now i am beginning to agree with them. when she came into my life, things started to look up, i felt a tinge of optimism rising in my gut. then everything came crashing down just like that *snaps fingers*


from the optimistic viewpoint: if the old does not go, the new does not come.

from the realistic viewpoint: she's gone, as have many other girls, i should seriously consider turning gay

from the pessimistic viewpoint: even gays wouldnt want me, so i should seriously considered stranding myself alone on an island and live on a diet of roast monkey, rainwater and coconuts


looking at all the above, i think the pessimistic viewpoint suits me best, so i have been converted from realism to pessimism as from this moment on


okay tummy growling in protest, better try forcing something down now. pain is necessary to continue my miserable existence.


*fades into nothingness*

leaving skool cheakie at 1:57 PM [comment]

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