Tuesday, January 03, 2006

ok i have so much to say....a lot happened since yesterday...night...yup


ok...starting yesterday...it was her bdae...so met up with her to give her a movie treat after pool...tried damn hard to act normal...it was easier than expected since we havent seen each other for so damn long...met her after pool with niexin...

was quite late when we met up...like 2.30...so we reached town at like 3.15...went straight to lido...saw jael mugging away at macs..walao so act mug lor!! wahaahaa...anyway found that there were no watchable shows that were short enough to allow me to go off at 5..so just went around looking at stuff and chatting...went to eat the toriQ and sushi...yup...actually wanted her to go along to support cheemun at the campus superstar thingy but cos i couldnt confirm a ticket for her, she already made arrangements...was worried sick when she said that she was going to a friend's friend's place...IN ALJUNIED! thats like so near geylang..tried to put her off it by telling her that there were alot of bangalas there...which is true....but she wouldnt budge...got even more worried later after we parted cos she either took damn long to reply or didnt reply at all...and her msgs were damn short...nearly went crazy when in the end i tried calling her at midnight and her hp was off.....kept praying for her safety....thank God when i tried calling her this morning the hp rang..and she called back...phew....guess that was the closest i came to what we had a year ago... =/ she still stood as close to me as usual...and could feel her pentetrating gaze when i was looking away...wish i could turn back time....i dont know...we are good for now...


anyway at 5.30 i met jason lee at orchard to go mediacorp with him...while waiting for him, char kept wanting me to sing to her...said that her heart was beating damn fast...i assume she was kinda apprehensive about going to a stranger's house...refused to sing though..haha...rare right?? all you out there who have heard my renditions of songs, you are so honored! she wanted jason to sing her a birthday song too...but she ran off when he came... anyway he sang her a birthday song over the phone..haha..


jason and i then took the train to bishan...changed to bus...realised that we had taken it the wrong direction...cabbed to mediacorp....the rest were there already...waited damn long to get in...chun keong gave me 2 whistles to blow....jason and i blew our lungs out until the ah lians sitting in front kept turning around to diao us...lol


the female performers SUCKED! except the last one..the handsome bung...lol...the guys werent too bad...CM got the lowest points cos i think he was nervous...but i think he had the best voice...competition was tough lah cos the rest of the contestants were either better looking or more confident...poor CM...we sent plenty of voting SMSes but he didnt make it...so unfair...think i may just continue watching the show...i LOVE the gay judge!! lol...he is so "uncle" yet SO GAY!! lol....see him cant stop laughing...


anyway after cheemun got voted out, things went downhill from there....


reached home at 12.30...while i was eating laopeh came over and told me that he was not going to pay for my poly education...FUCK....just cos i said i might want to be an actor in future...he was not going to "partake in making you a tool of the devil" and said all sorts of fucking nonsense...i cant be bothered with censoring myself cos im so bloody frustrated...laobu definitely had a huge part in instigating him...fucking bitch...so i told him i was going to fucking dropout cos i needed to work to pay my school fees...IMAGINE IT!! FUCKING WORKING TO FUCKING PAY YOUR OWN FUCKING SCHOOL FEES!!! calculated my school fees...i need 10K for my whole poly education...fucked up...this coupled with my not being able to contact her kept me awake for damn long...the last time i looke at the clock before i fell asleep, it was 3am....



woke at 5.30am to the sounds of alarm clocks....grandma tried waking me up...i said i wasnt going to school...she got pissed...i said its cos laopeh fucking refused to pay for my education and i had to work to support myself..then laobu came along and fucking kicked me...got jolted up...she started to kp about all sorts of shit so i just covered my ears with the pillow...then she fucking yanked the fucking pillow away and started screaming shit into my ear...shit like "mediacorp is going to collapse when you join it" and "God will curse the ground you step on"...so i fucking screamed back at her to fucking leave me alone....ah meow (the cat) was yowling away...couldnt sleep even after laobu stopped cos ah meow kept making alot of noise...so after enhui left for school with laobu sending her there i went into my sisters' room and lay down beside my youngest sis cos it was quieter inside...i must mention that we were at least 2 feet apart


then laobu came back, came into the room, saw me sleeping on the same bed as my sister and kept shaking her to wake her up...when leng finally roused, laobu said "come leng, go to mummy's room to sleep. dont sleep with boys." ....KANINA! fucking extremist! she's my sis for heaven's sake! and its not as if i was touching her or anything!! fucking bitch..hate the way laobu fucking twists bible quotes and uses every little thing to tell my sisters to "stay away from the world" ...to keep away from buying things that are not cheapskate cos "the devil will suck you in into spending" ....and "dont end up like your brother, he is in darkness"...and "at least you appreciate your mother who has bled for you, sacrificed so much for you, ALL for you. at least you are not ungrateful like your brother" ...fucked up bitch i tell you..


so i went back to sleep...woke up, found no food...so cooked maggi mee..then just stoned around, calling the polys to check the fees and stuff....then when enhui came back, laobu started screwing her for being a few minutes late...she threatened to fetch enhui after school everyday...enhui was in tears trying to get her not to...cos its very embarrassing....then laobu sat outside the toilet staring at the door waiting for hui to finish bathing so she could continue abusing her....


when hui came out and the abuse started again, i couldnt stand it...so i remarked how laobu always claimed to be too busy to do housework, forcing it upon us...and she had the time to sit outside staring at the toilet door...laobu went crazy the minute i opened my mouth...really crazy...cant remember what she said, or what i said for that matter...all i remember is that she mentioned something about her pastor giving her permission to kick me out of the house if i tried to influence her daughter, which was what i was doing then...so she kicked me out...so here i am now at xx's place...i dont know how im going to survive, but im banging on "the Lord will provide"...haha...read the bible quite a bit...read stuff like "Get out of your father's house" in genesis and many encouraging things like "God is a ever-present help in times of need"...wow...


so i arranged to stay at xx's place...which is where im at now...his flatmates are in china...so quite empty..the place is a mess though....haha..typical bachelor's apartment...walked out carrying lots of barangbarang: stuff which i bought with my own pay and stuff which laopeh and laobu would be likely to throw away just to spite me...yup...so far so good...im going back to work tml...keep praying for me yall!! think third aunt will give me pocket money, she always has been wanting to support me...guess she empathises with me...yup...the Lord will provide


jiawen and char have offered to help me in any way that i require..haha..but i dont think i will want to trouble them...for all of you reading this pls do not let out too much...thanks...

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