Friday, August 26, 2005

Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with


I don't want to run away
But I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with

I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side


I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

EULOGY:

when it flew into my house when hui was playing the piano on her birthday, we knew it was special. it was rainbow coloured...literally...from head to tail. flying around and crapping all over the place, it chirped damn loudly...after we caught it in a cage, we decided to name it.. my family isnt very creative when it comes to names....(as you can see from my name)...we could not decide the sex of the bird....so soon it became known affectionately as............well.......... "the bird"......

when i was preparing for my prelims, it was probably my most memorable moments with the bird....waking up at 3 am to study, the light which i turned on used to wake the bird up....extremely unhappy for the rude disturbance, it was always determined to make a nuisance of itself...screeching loudly, it disturbed my concentration....i used to drape the cage in newspaper to keep it quiet...months passed...the bird had always been a nuisance to me...waking me in the morning with its shrieks and attempting to peck off my finger whenever i held a birdseed into the cage....

but just about a 2 weeks ago, it went strangely silent....it always seemed to be sleeping. it started shedding around the eyes...it grew weaker and weaker...soon it was having trouble perching...once, when i saw it lose its balance, my heartstrings were tugged....my bird was dying...eventually, it died last wednesday, 17th august 2005....

bird, i know you cant hear me...but i just want to say how much i have grown to miss you...the empty cage sitting in the corner never fails to make me go silent....thanks for keeping me awake during my pre-prelims study sessions....miss you...

lets now have a moment of silence....













ok moment of silence is over...back to blogging...hmmmm....quite alot has happened...daryl lim recently complianed (as usual) to the principal about students blogging about him....apparantly he is not a very hot teacher...i understand...he is such a loser lah...cant stand up for his own rights...cant handle situations himself....must always complain...thinks the whole bloody world owes him a living...wtf...and the principal says that dissing ppl on your blog is wrong...like wtf...having a blog is like letting people look into your journal...if others dont like what you have written about them right, they are freee to disagree but defintely have no good reason to go whining to higher authorities...since writing in your blog is expressing your views towards life, trying to change something which someone has blogged about you which you dont like is like trying to change his impression of you...you dont change impressions like that daryl...you only worsen them..


daryl, if you find out that students dont like you, can you at least be more mature and try to change for the better rather than go whining like a primary school kid to the authorities?? loser....GROW UP!!! you have no idea how many students dropped geog just because it meant you teaching them..... and just in case the powers-that-be in SAJC are reading this, you could have a much higher ranking in geog results if not for your square-faced arrogant employee with a horrible attitude...many good geog students dropped geog cos of him....


hmmm....my sis brought a kitten home last night...was looking after it while her friend tried to convince her parents to let her keep it...happened to be my parents wedding anniversary so laobu was in a good mood and didnt kpkb....marvelous...its DAMN CUTE LAH!!!!! hope the parents say NO to her friend...hehe...

was late yesterday....bell rang just as i was 1m away from the gate...fucking shit....


oh well...gtg...blog more sometime..........

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Thursday, August 04, 2005

life sucks...my face is erupting...im like totally blank...not thinking at all....been so busy with the rehearsals that didnt have time to cut my hair..was late this morning...as if that wasnt bad enough, i just got caught this morning in a massive spotcheck....they invited barbers lah!! wtf...everyone had to fork out 7 bucks for a bloody haircut...i couldnt stand a malay barber haircut...all they do is lop off your sideburns and charge you 7 bucks to do it... -,- so i decided to get my money's worth....im now botak!!! big mistake...just realised that there are 2 huge moles on my scalp...now shown to the public...ewwww.....liu bo and daniel cut botak with me too....they look good lah!! i look like a giant misshapen testicle with 2 moles on it...... T.T


but i got 7 meals and 3 bucks...from the dares that ppl made with me to shave...ya


anna was crazy on sunday night after the first dry run...she wanted to get off at the 963 bus stop and take a 'nice 20 minute stroll home'...at like 11 pm and carrying a huge bag of the dancers skirts!!! you know how dark and ulu it was?? i decided to send her home...after emmeline went back we like walked along a path which had a forested area on one side and a 2 lane road on the other...damn deserted..she intended to go it alone...wow...shes damn brave..

anyway today was like the day of the drama!! we did good i guess...but was damn disappointed that no one responded to altar call..just some backsliders...but just pray that GOd will continue to work in their hearts....yeah....


angie says hi...she is so irritating....like totally....
and now angie is so sad after reading this....


ok that was her....ya...nothing much else....




I MISS MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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